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Chelsea

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It Is Dark Where I Sit by Csa, literature

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It Is Dark Where I Sit

It is dark where I sit. My pale green eyes stare over through the darkness with no destination. The eyes are merely watching and waiting in silence. The cold, raw shrieks in the night pierce the layer of blackness and I find I am even more alone than I had been before. My white fingers shaking, trembling without any real reason, but with the fear that I could be alone forever. I though the floor or red, stained from years of tears and blood shed because of anger. My heart is weary and it seems I cannot continue my journey through the darkness. I reach out, but I am pushed away, avioded, isolated to my own. Alone. My mind is my compan

Try To Feel The Pain by Csa, literature

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Try To Feel The Pain

Black lips pressed against the cold glass wanting you to come back. Dying from the lack of sleep, Eyes bleeding and all I see is dreaming. Hearts slashed open waiting to be torn and now we're feeling. Numbness passed and I'm awake To every feeling and I'm dying. Try to see the torment in me. Love is lost and now we fall asleep beneath the ground here. Tender words and soft caress Won't bring me back from my distress. Mind is cracking and the walls are spinning round and I can't see. Lost behind an eerie fog And no path yet to follow. Try to feel the pain in me. Trouble meshing with them all and I feel guilt beyond all else. Cry

Disappears by Csa, literature

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Disappears

It's like their holding me under, Preventing my breathing, Watching me die behind the thick black ice. The water is cold and I feel my heart slowing. The pounding is ripping me open. I can't scream because I'll wake them, I'll wake them and they'll drown out my cries. Thinking is all I have left to do, And I feel like I'm suffocating them with my words. Words that mean nothing to them. They have all their own problems, So what are mine?-Nothing. I'm just an adult trapped in this body. I can't escape because there's no turning up time. It's like my lungs have collapsed, Silencing my speech, Stifling every last breath in my body

Mommy by Csa, literature

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Mommy

Your scent is fading, And I'm losing you. I'm drowning in the tears. It's not fair. Your lost And I can't find you. Where did you go? This is all wrong, And all I want to do is let go, All I want to do is let go. I can't find happiness. I can't fix all the bad. I can't fight the pain, Because you're not here to make it better, Never going to be back to make me better again. Why have you gone away? Why can't words bring you back to me? Why have you left me here? I can't go on without you, I just can't go on without you. It's too hard to see. It's too hard to breathe. It's too hard to keep living, And I'm dying without yo

I'm Fragile and Cracking by Csa, literature

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I'm Fragile and Cracking

I'm fragle and cracking, I need careful handling. Apparently that's not enough for you. I can't grow back perfect. I can't be a statue now. I've gone from cold to melted. I'm a drowning baby, With no cordination to get out. You watch from the sides, No care in your eyes. I'm breaking like glass does. I'm being blown away like sand. You're lost in oblivion without me. I'm very fragle, I'm breakable. I need careful handling, But your walking away.

Secrets In The Walls by Csa, literature

Literature

Secrets In The Walls

These walls are dull and gray, But they have a thousand stories. These walls are cold and quiet, Through the day. These walls are dull and gray, But they have a million secrets. Their eyes are always watching, Through the afternoon. At night they speak their secrets. Old thoughts and new lies. Their terrors always haunting, Never stopping. The ghostly faces calling. The ruptured souls have died. The demons that never leave, Are always haunting. These walls have eyes of fury, They watch with anger, you see. These walls are cold and malicious, They wait. At night the dead ones come, To talk about their secrets, To plot a p

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Artist // Photography

United States
Deviant for 19 years
She / Her

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Current Residence: Tower of Torture
Favourite genre of music: Rock/Metal, Rock, Alternative Rock, Alternative
Favourite photographer: suzi9mm
Favourite style of art: Photo manipulation it's fun
Operating System: PC?
MP3 player of choice: RealOne Player
Favourite cartoon character: Rurouni Kenshin

Favourite Visual Artist

Tani-chan, enchanted-black-rose, Freak-amy2001, ThisYearsGirl, Himikaze, rahsyk

Favourite Movies

Pirates of the Caribbean, Pitch Black, Queen Of The Damned, Secret Window, Amelie... much more...

Favourite Bands / Musical Artists

Marilyn Manson, 40 Below Summer, The Strokes, Slipknot, Static-X, Tegan and Sara, Godsmack

Favourite Writers

Sylvia Plath, J.R.R Tolkien, Anne Rice, J.K. Rowling

Favourite Games

Persona

Tools of the Trade

pencil, colored pencils, pilot pens... i know it's pathetic

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Singing, Writing, Drawing, Movies, Music, Death, Beauty, Light, and Sleep

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Csa

May 27, 2008

Wow....

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Wow! It's been a really long time since I've even been close to this site. My life has been really hectic with my baby girl. She's beautiful! I'm a stay at home mommy and I go to college... which is a full load, let me tell you... My boyfriend, her daddy, and I live together and... uh... That's really the update. Not too much drama... I don't really sing, write, or draw anymore... which is depressing, but I'm trying to get back into at least my writing... I think my drawing is out the window and never coming back. lol. Anyway that's all on my front.

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Csa

Dec 9, 2006

What's New?

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Let's see, what's new with me...? Well obviously it's been a LONG time since I've posted up here. It makes me rather sad actually. I've been busy with the life crap. Guardianship stuff for my younger sister... mourning... being with my friends and my boyfriend. Oh! And that's changed since the last time I was here. I have a new boyfriend... and I'm pregnant!! Heh... crazy!!! I did a little drawing... I don't have any clue if I'm any better than I was... I don't think so... I haven't written very much, so I wouldn't expect a lot... and my computer time has been cut short... Mainly all I do on the computer is school related things. Yeah. I do

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Csa

Feb 24, 2006

Yeah...

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Well, now... isn't this lovely... I'm back, everyone. I'm sure you missed me? *sigh* Life has been horrible, that's why I haven't checked all my wonderful people that I've deviantwatched... because I love your art... yeah... rambler... Anyway. I might be posting a new poem up here soon... or two... who knows?-Maybe I'll be daring and put up three???? *shock* *awe* Yes, I still have a boyfriend... that's working out alright. I'm obsessed with Buffy the Vampire slayer... not that I wasn't before, but I'm almost done with watching the whole series over the course of several months and long long nights. hehehe. I love it. No job. No money. No